Post date: Apr 3, 2011 10:21:44 PM
Ryan's due date is 2 weeks from today!! That means he can actually come at any time now. I originally wanted him to come late so that I wouldn't have any extra days without pay at work. However, like everyone told me, I have changed my mind. I can't wait to meet him and I'm getting more uncomfortable each day so I am now hoping he decides to show his face a little early.
We thought for a brief moment last night that we would be meeting him this weekend. We went bowling with family and friends last night and I started having contractions about 10 minutes apart at the bowling alley. At that moment I realized how scared I am of labor/delivery. I started getting so scared and felt sick about the thought of going to the hospital to give birth. The contractions stopped and I felt relieved and a sad at the same time. I was relieved because I'm terrified of giving birth, but sad because I am anxious to meet him. I know that I shouldn't be so scared of giving birth and I know that once it's truly happening my excitement will outweigh the fear, but I can't help but worry.
I go to the doctor tomorrow to find out if I'm dilated at all. So far I haven't been dilated at all but he's dropping more and more each week. I'll keep you updated as often as possible since his arrival is just around the corner!